Body shaming. I never really felt much on the subject until here recently. Mainly because I’ve never truly experienced it and what all it can do to someone’s self esteem. But trust me when I tell you, it hurts. Regardless of if its just one person or a million people who have an opinion on how you look, the hurtful words hurt the same. Let me explain.
I’ve never been anorexic or bulimic, and God bless all of those that have gone through that and survived, but I am what I classify myself as an “emotional eater.” When I’m down about something, I eat. All day long. And throughout my college days, I gained a good bit of weight. No, I’m not obese or anything, but I am overweight. I carry my weight well, and I’m #blessed because of it, but to be honest, I wish I didn’t gain all that weight to begin with. And since I graduated, I’ve been working on making a healthier life for myself. Exercise, eating healthy, the whole 9 yards. And I still don’t feel beautiful or healthy. And getting back into shape is harder said than done.
But I’ve slowly but surely started seeing results from my hard work. Not as quickly as I’d like, but still seeing it. Anyway, I ran into one of my family members in town. He’s always been kinda arrogant, cocky as all get out, but I still love him. I mean, after all, he’s family. As I’m speaking to him, we begin to walk back to his car, and he makes the comment about my size, basically that they would have to make my shirt out of his bed sheet because I’m that big. Ouch, that one stung. And this has been days ago, but of course, it’s stuck with me. And I’m sure he was kidding, but I can’t say that for certain. And I’m not writing this to make him feel bad or anything of that nature, because that isn’t my intention.
But I do write this to say, we don’t know what another person is battling with inside. We don’t know how our words can make another person feel. Eating disorders, self-hatred, low self-esteem, etc, are typically not something a person expresses about themselves until its too late or they’re knocking on death’s door. So why do we continue to let body shaming be an issue in our society? Why do we choose to say negative things about one another and how we look? And honestly, why do we let a number define what is healthy? I could be a size 2 all day long, and I still wouldn’t be healthy.
God made every single one of us different for a reason. We all are made in His image, no matter what size you are. Healthy is the most important size. And I’m grateful for my journey to healthy. I’ve had more encouragement than I have had negativity, but that is not the case for everyone. So for those that are battling body shaming issues, know that you are beautifully and wonderfully made.
I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that fully well. -Psalms 139:14.